Hi guys! I guess it’s time for me to stop procrastinating and actually write something here. I don’t really know what to write about but I’ll try.
So I’ve been spending my holidays doing nothing at home. I go to bed late everyday, like 4 to 6 in the morning, then if my mum doesn’t wake me up I’ll be sleeping till noon. Or maybe till after lunch. I usually miss both breakfast and lunch. I made a Pottermore account thinking that I would probably spend most of my time there but it didn’t last. I don’t really have any movies that I want to watch right now, so instead of movies I downloaded a lot of video games. Even Octodad. And spend most of my evening watching my brother plays Skyrim. It’s the same thing everyday.
But I’m not going to complain about it. I actually like this lifestyle. I don’t really feel like meeting any of my friends. I don’t feel like meeting anyone at all. Just my family is enough. I eat a lot here. Probably because I don’t have anything to do so I eat. I have dinner like everyday. I used to only have 1-2 meals per day and skip dinner but yeah. I take naps sometimes. I don’t like napping. But oh well. Hey, did I just describe an old people’s life?
I dyed my hair. I feel bad for my parents because it was kind of expensive. I bleached the whole hair though. Mum told me not to but as usual I will always do the opposite of what everybody tells me.
I’m currently thinking about selling stuffs online. Open up an online shop. I don’t know what to sell yet. I don’t even know how to start. Like where do I even find stuffs?
I went to a USA education fair a few weeks ago. I’m not sure if i could survive my current university. I dreamed about it. In that dream I kept telling myself that “giving up is only for the weak”. I take that as a sign to not give up. I’m always a quitter. I never finish what I started. Most of time I just lost interests. But in this case, it’s complicated. Even though I’m always a step behind in my studies, I never have problems catching up. I just really like to move at very slow pace. But the university’s treating me like shit. My Korean’s not very good. I took a year off university to go to language school. I am supposed to return this year but I couldn’t log in to my student account to register for this upcoming semester. And the office doesn’t even try to solve the problem. So I don’t know if I could continue my studies there or not, and I don’t know if I want to commit to any of this school’s bullshits. Similar thing happened in 2013 and twice in 2014 so I don’t know.
Anyway, I’ve always wanted to continue my studies in the US. I used to live there for 3 years, I just really love that country. I kind of regret for not going there in the first place. Damn it k-pop. Because of k-pop, I went to South Korea, to audition and stuffs. I wanted to be an entertainer. The entertainment business in my country is just not as good.
I was like 17, I guess I didn’t really think. I don’t always get what I want, but once I start fighting for what I want, nothing’s impossible. I regret most of my decisions though, but I never learn. Wonder why.
Okay back to the education fair. There were so many good universities from many parts of the country, but I want to live in California. My dream is to go to any UCs. I don’t care if it’s UCLA or Berkeley or Santa Barbara, as long as it’s a UC I’ll be happy to study there. But I don’t even have SAT/ACT and I’m just too lazy to get them.
So I found this one community college where I could spend 2 years there, and later transfer to any one of the UCs. Sounds perfect to me. They don’t really need SAT/ACT/TOEFL, or whatever to begin with. But is it too late for me to go to community college? I’ll be turning 20 this year. Just wondering if there are some old people there. Cause usually you go there after high school right?
But really, I’ve heard of community college before but most of the people that I know told me that community college is never a good option. I don’t really know. Hm
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